I feel like I am in some sort of vortex and/or a stasis, of having a great accomplishment of finishing my BA in English and not really knowing what I am going to do now. Actually, I do know what I am going to do, get my MA in English next. However, I also want to extend my professional legs and use my shiny new degree in some capacity.
Here is my problem. I am thankful getting back into the grind of academia and learning quickly, but a little frustrated at the idea of polishing off my resume and writing cover letters for part time administrative jobs, to hopefully gain a decent set of skills when I get out there into the other “real world”. I want something in my field, perhaps in communications or theater arts, but at this point, maybe I am only good for retail.
I feel like I am in some sort of quarter life crisis, (How many are we allowed to have anyway?) Who am I? What is my fate (do I even believe in fate)? Is it absolutely impossible to find meaningful work? Do I just have too many options and no real direction?
I need to take time to think, to do some heavy soul searching. I’ve been doing a ton of knitting and organizing my stash. I have all of the “on the needles” projects separated, so they don’t get lost in my trunk of yarn. My goal is to get all of them done in this “in between space” before class starts again. My other goal is to get this blog up and running again. I miss writing for fun.
I joined a KAL (Knit-a-Long) for fall, and I am having a great time listening to NPR podcasts and knitting on a Blue Sand Cardigan by La Masion Rililie with MadelineTosh DK Merino yarn. It has been fabulous. It was kind of an accident how I started this sweater. I’ve been in love with this pattern since it came out. I was holding out for a great green accent color instead of the blue in the pattern. When MadelineTosh came out with their Shire color I knew that I had to have it. (It’s a must for a devoted Tolkien fan)
The Shire color is absolutely me. I could not love a color more, I think. (Unless it was a purple color, then I probably could love it more) It is earthy and lovely and actually reminds me of going to the Pacific Northwest as a kid. Beautiful. I was able to find a use for a bowl we got from Belize on our honeymoon, 6 years ago. (It is absolutely insane to me that I haven’t lived in Colorado for 6 years.)
Sweater progress. So so great to be knitting on this and thinking about what’s next in this big old world. Knitting this summer has been a bit of therapy until I can talk to a real counselor. Sometimes it’s good to slow down and get with some ladies who love you and knit on something that will look fabulous. I am thankful for this summer, as crazy as I feel. Good things are on the horizon.